His Favorite Word

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

I'm not yet a mother, but when I'm writing this post...I feel like one...ngeeee~~~

Gambar2 kt atas nih gmbr cousin aku...name die Muhammad Shafwan Zikri..comeyl x?..hehe..aku yg ltak name tuh...sdap tak? Umur die baru 10 bulan 3 minggu..sbb tu aku rase cm mak sbb I'm 21 nk msuk 22..our age gap dh bley buat anak tau..and the fact yg aku juga salah seorg yg mendidik die, make me feel more like a mother...=_='

Aku pown x igt at this age, sptutnye budak cm die ni dh bley ckap ke blum...tp die ni, die dh bley ckap cket2...well, not exactly speak..more like, imitating...die ade habit to imitate whatever words yg kuar dari mulut ktorg..ktorg refer to aku, nenek aku, mak cik2 aku dan the other cousins...

It's really nothing special...seriously...die same je cm baby2 laen yg aku babysit...well, aku mmg our family babysitter so ramai gler cousins yg mude2 dari aku, aku tolg jage mase diorg kecik2...but what's so special about him smpi aku rase nk blog pasal die ni is his favorite word..

Nak tau tak ape favorite word si shafwan nih???

His favorite word is.....

ALLAH...<3<3<3

Contoh2 time die akan sbut Allah :-

1) Bile aku usik die, amek bantal busuk die, kalu die x ley nk amek...die akan sbut Allah kuat2...

2) Ataupown bile aku geram, aku pluk die kuat2...since die rimas, die akan berusaha nk kuar from the hug smbil sbut2 Allah...hehe..

3) When he want to reach something, but x smpai...

And many other situations when he'll say Allah....die sbut Allah tu mcm kter sbut Allah bile kter cm lenguh2 dan straighten our back..smbil straighten kter punye blakang tu kan kter akan sbut Allah in a special way?Cmtu r die sbut Allah...exactly the same...He's so brilliant..

Dari mane die dgr this word, Alhamdulillah from nenek aku...from aku jgak..dan other family members...tapi selalunye dari nenek aku...nenek aku dh umo 72 nk masuk 73...so, bile die nk bgun dari duduk tu, msti die akan says Allah~~~ sbb sush die nk bgun...Everytime shafwan dgar ni, msti pastu die sbut gak...ngeeee~~~

He also imitates other words from ktorg2..Alhamdulillah, so far x penah dgar lagi die imitate imappropriate words sbb die x penah dgar bnd tu kuar from mulut kami...Thank you sgt2 kt Allah...Rase bersyukur giler sbb our family never said bnd bukan2 dpan shafwan ni...Alhamdulillah jgak habit ktorg ni even time melatah, we'll say Allah...just imagine kalu melatah sbut b**i (lembu pendek)...Naudzubillah...

Ape bnd penting aku nk ckap kt cni adalah nmpak x to all adults out there...especially parents..children see what WE see, hear what WE hear, say what we SAY and do what WE do..that's why, always think wisely before you act in front of them...just imagine, hari2 kter maki2 b***h, b**i dan sebagainya...then, bile anak besar, diorg sbut the same things kter marah2, kter kate x elok..nmpak sgtlah tndakan tdak bijak di situ..obviously they won't listen sbb kter pown buat..

WE HAVE TO TEACH WITH EXAMPLE

Show them good examples, they will be good..bukannye berleter 24/7 soh anak jd elok when kter sndri pown x elok mane..Btol tak? Even kter pown x kan dgr ckap bos yg perangai huduh..same goes to children..they won't do things their parents don't do...so, everyone...ibu2, bapa2, kakak2 atau abang2 especially yg ade baby2 ni...behave appropriately...

For example, nk ajar anak sembhyang...you smbhyanglah jgak...smbhyang skali...they will follow...start from when they're babies..some people say, wtpe...baby lagi...bukan faham pown...tp, you don't know...the memories from zaman baby2 ni, sgt memberi kesan in the development of the babies in the future...bak kate pepatah, "melentur buluh, biarlah dari rebungnya...=)"

Skrg ni, tiap kali aku smbhyang, I even bring him pray with me...x smbhyang skali pown, aku ltak die dlm bilik smbhyg skali ngn aku...now, he can already say Allahuakbar...so cute...=) Nmpak tak? That's one example...

X de r aku nk ckap aku kakak yg baek ke pe, but it's something I'm trying to do...and it's a good thing...sbb mak aku succeed didik aku jd cm die cause she did this...so, this method is working, right? I'm trying to raise him as a REAL muslim...itulah yg aku try buat kt cousins yg laen jgak...sgt susah...baru aku faham susahnye mak abah aku didik aku kcik2 dlu....=_=' Kdg2, cm nk give up...

But Allah keeps me STRONG...cause I know, nilah antara bnd2 yg aku bley sumbg utk islam...nk pi perang, mane mampu...harap2 sgt this small effort dpt tmbah amanah saham akhirat aku...dan sgt2 harap ibadah2 ni btol2 suci dari riya', tkbur dan ape saje yg bley rosakkn amal aku nih...Hope it's counted...inshaAllah...May Allah bless...everyone, pray for me...

The BEST Gift..=)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..=)

Dh lame giler x meng'hupdate'<ade r kwn tu sbut cengggini> blog nih..ngeeeee~~~

Byak giler bnd nk share smpai x ter'share'...too much thoughts smpai x mampu nk put into words....instead of tulis kt blog, aku prefer to implement in my life first...dh boleh, baru aku post cni...so, all the thoughts following my muhasabah these few months, nnt aku tulis dlm post laen..

Skrg nih, aku nk cter pasal birthday aku tahun nih...gile x malu promote birthday sndri...haha...senanye nk cter sbb byak sgt tarbiyah Allah utk kali ni...


Mule2 skali, nk cter pasal hadiah Allah bg kt aku..

Keblkgan nih, aku asyik dilanda kemurungan...T_T

Terlampau byak cbran dan dugaan bg aku yg buat aku rase nk give up dlm sume bnd aku buat...<perasan je lebey, org kt palestin punye dugaan lagi dhsyat>

Jujur ckap, rase down gile...rase cm the BIGGEST LOSER...T_T bukan lose weight yer..

So, aku amek kptusan lari dri bnd tu sume..aku x on fb, twitter n blog nih sbb x nk face the truth..sbb bile bkak sume2 nih, I'll see my friends progressing with 2nd year...the fact that I failed...it will feel so real again and it hurts so much...

Tapi, after months of kemurungan, akhirnya...finally...huhu~~~

*bunga api letup2 cket*

I got a message from a very dear fren..so, aku pown cal r die..hehehe..dpat ckap ngn ex-partner gak...Alhamdulillah...ceria cket dh hdup aku pastu...this happened few days before my actual birthday...

Sepjg aku hdup, this is one of the best gift Allah bg kt aku....Allahuakbar...sbbnye, aku mmg rndu sesgt kt depa dua org nih...tp aku sedey+segan nk meng'contact' depa sbb mesti depa busy...Allah gerakkan depa2 ni ctc aku...MashaAllah....terharu sgt...T_T


The BEST part is, aku x luah pown kt Allah aku rndu depa2 nih...See???

ALLAH KNOWS BEST!!! <3<3<3

Then, beberapa hari pastu...aku dpat reconcile ngan one of my cousin yg x rapat ngan aku...dulu kcik2 mmg rapat, tdo skali sume...tp bile makin besar, makin jauh plak...so, again...Allah, forever grateful to You...T_T

And once again nk ckap, aku x penah gtau Allah aku rndu sesgt die nih...cm tau2 je...hehe...hebat tak Allah nih???? So, trust me...jgn jauh2 dari Allah...

Allah is the BEST!!!

On my birthday, Alhamdulillah....All praises be to Allah....=)

Allah woke me up with the best possible way...kucing aku dtg, nama dia 'Coriang'...kekeke...pelik giler name die...

Dok mengiau soh aku bangun...hehehe...sweet x? bg pencinta kucing, this is like heaven gile okeyh....bgun2 je aku 'high' sbb excited sgt...

*excited, excited!!!*

And lagi best...Allah kejut aku dlm pkul 4 stgah cmtu...so, aku rase cm Allah nk soh bgun dan solat and ask for anything from Him...Allahuakbar...MashaAllah....bersyukurnya aku...

Dan yg buat aku bersyukur sgt2 time tu...sudah agak lame aku x bgun solat malam...T_T

Pathetic kan? Aku rase status imaan aku sgt horrible+disaster...so, aku rase cm x layak utk dipilih oleh Allah utk bgun solat malam...

*terharu...*

Then, aku keep 'touching' sbb ayat ni yg aku jmp mase tadarus pg td...

76:29-30

"Sungguh, ayat-ayat) ini adalah peringatan, maka barang siapa menghendaki (kebaikan bagi dirinya) tentu dia mengambil jalan menuju Tuhannya. Tetapi kamu tidak mampu (menempuh jalan itu), kecuali apabila dikehendaki Allah. Sungguh, Allah Maha Mengetahui, Maha Bijaksana."

Alhamdulillah...Allah masih nak aku cari Dia...Alhamdulillah sgt2...x dpt nk explain cmne 'grateful'nye aku sbb Allah x penah tinggal aku jauh2....He will never let me go far from Him for so long..

Jujur, mesti r ade time di mana aku menjauhkan diri dari Allah...kenape ntah...bukan dapat ap pown..Though by running away from Him, I'll become more and more vulnerable...still, there are times when I still choose to run away from Him...everyone, says Naudzubillah okey...jgn ikut...*AMARAN KERAS*

Astaghfirullah...T_T

*embarrassing...indeed...*

Ape yg aku blaja, still the same...unless you let Allah go, He will NEVER let you go...

so, keep holding on...credit:Avril Lavigne

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Next, the celebration...hehe...mule2 igt kan x de celebration...pak cik aku pown blanja aku makan pizza...die nk beli kek jgak tapi aku x de mood nk makan kek...kang mebazir je..ngeee~~

Meh nk 'show off' cket gmbonyer..

*Dgn tok limah...huhu...tutp mate r plak...=_='*

*Pak busuk n Iffat!!!*

And lastly....

Untuk sahabat2 NUMed yg rapat ngan aku, for me, you are part of my family...korg tau korg sape..=)

To be able to have sahabat2 cm korg, I can't thank Allah enough....korglah antara the BEST gift Allah bg kt aku...so, smpena ckup umo 21 tahun...aku nk gtau korg..aku SAYANG sgt kt korg..n skrg nih aku RNDUUUU giler kt korg...T_T

Sabaq, sabaq...hadhinah oiii...tahun depan pjg umoq aku jmp korg...=)

To commmorate this, aku nk share gmbar2 korg kt cni...kalu rase gmbar nih x hensem, x lawa...pe lagi, bg gmbar2 lawa kt aku ek...=)

*Aku pown x pasti awat gmbaq ni nmpak huduh sgt...=_='*

*Si kurus nih...jeles!*

*Baby WANI!!! Aunty Fyra!!!...=)*

*GEDs Zatil + GEDs Wafa...hahaha....=p*

By the way, turutan gmbar ni x indicate pape pown ek..x bererti sape paling atas, yg tu aku pling sayang....kang ade yg 'touching' plak...aku sekeh kang..haha...aku sayg korg EQUALLY...hehe..

Sahabat2 yg x de dlm ni, anda sume masih aku sayang...sayang sgt...cumenye this post specially made to express how much I miss these people sbb senanye I can meet them if I want to...but, I just don't want to meet them yet...cause it's still tough...so, aku still kene meluahkan perasaan..jd, blog ni lar last optionnye...=)

So, inilah antara BEST gifts yg Allah dah bagi kt aku...

MashaAllah...Subhanallah...Alhamdulillah...Thank you Allah for everything...

Btw, senanye aku nk post bnd nih time birthday aku...tp td dh bergayut ngn cousin kesayangan...terlajak r plak...hehe..

Semoga tarbiyah Allah utk aku kali ni can touch many other hearts to also want to get close to Him...InshaAllah...Jazakallahukhairankathiran...Till next time, inshaAllah...

A Tribute to my BELOVED youngest brother

Bismillah...


Biase org buat tribute kalu org tu dh x de kan??? Xpe2, utk pengetahuan, adik aku ade lagi...cumenye, sgt 'touch' dgn ape yg die wat..so, nak kene tulis skrg...nnt 'feeling' hilang plak kalu postpone..


Aku ade 2 org adik laki..tapi skrg nk ckap pasl adik aku yg last...hehe...


Mula2 bley terharu ngan die nih sbb ade one day tu, ade org fitnah aku mcm2 dan aku diserang oleh seseorg yg lain sbb fitnah tu...dah la diserang kt skola lame dlu...TT_TT
On the phone je..I didn't even back up myself, not because I couldn't...but I chose not to...cause at the moment, Alhamdulillah sgt2..Allah put this feeling in my heart...

"Don't worry...Allah knows everything.."

So, aku diam...tapi ofkos lar air mate meleleh cm ape...MESTI lar nangis...kene sumpah-seranah kowt...ingat aku ni hati batu ke..ngeeee~~~


Okeyh..melalut dah..sbnrnye, point nk ckap kt cni...adik aku tau r bnd nih jadi...Yg wat aku terharu sesgt...He backed me up..He said to my mom,

"Ala...(org yg fitnah aku) tu asyik nk buruk2kan org je.."

AllahuAllah..Allahuakbar...Salah satu hikmah selpas ujian...Aku tau adik aku sayang aku..hahahaha...


Pas tau pasal ni, aku terharu tak hbes2..rase cm nk bagi sume yg adik aku tu nak..tapi sebgai wanita Ego+Poyo, aku diam wat x tau..hahaha..perangai ni dilarang tiru...*amarankeras* aku tgah nk ubah..


But, few days ago..I got to know something about my brother...yg membuatkan aku semakin saaaaayang kat die...AllahuAllah...tak tergambar sayang cmne..selame ni mmg sayang, tapi adik-beradik..sayang2 pown, menyampah lagi banyak..sbb aku ngan die ni mmg x sebulu..Faktor2nye adalah sbb ktorg banyak persamaan..kepala angin+manje terlebey...hahaha..


Not only my love for him bertambah, he also gained my respect....WOW!!! 

*bunga api letup2*

Bukan senang aku nk respect seseorg tu..lagi2 adik aku...oh, NO!!! Tak mungkin, but he just did...=)))


Citer die cmni...Aku berborak2 ngan ckgu skola rndah aku, merangkap ckgu skola rndah sume adik-beradik aku, merangkap BEST FRIEND mak aku...hehehe...


Die bgtau what happened to my brother mase abah aku mule2 kawen baru tu...TT_TT..even while writing this, I'm crying...I can only imagine betape trauma+stressnye adik aku mase tu..kengkawan die sume ejek2 sbb abah aku kawen lain...abah aku plak tak lekat umah...cikgu aku cter, sejak tu, die diam je kat skola...mase tu aku cuti pas SPM..so, aku ade je kat umah...tapi, aku ingat...NOT EVEN ONCE, he said anything...NOT EVEN ONCE, die balik umah menangis/mengamuk ke ape...TAK PERNAH LANGSUNG...

* * * * * * *Break kejap, nak nangis puas2 dulu* * * * * * *

Mase tu, adik aku baru umo 11 tahun..ape la sgt yg die tau...AllahuAllah...betape KUATnye adik aku..I still remember, it was easy for me...sbb aku menyampah dok umah, aku bungkus2 baju balek umah nenek kt kedah..adik aku, he had to stay..die pi skola...tak ponteng pown walaupown bley je die tantrum dan ckap kt mak aku tak nak pi skola..he can tell my mom what happen...but, HE DIDN'T..sbb die SAYANG mak aku...die tau mak aku dah ckup sedey...NAMPAK TAK MATANGNYE ADIK AKU COMPARE TO AKU???


No wonder, mak aku sgt manjakan dia sejak abah kawen laen...Sampai aku menyampah...I wonder why...So, this is the reason...Aku pown rase cm nk manjekan die pasni...hehe..

TT_TT

Byak lagi nak ckap, tapi x mampu dah..these tears won't stop...


For Abiq,

"Abiq, kak din mntak maaf bebyak sbb 4 tahun baru kak din perasan...Selfishnye kak din selame nih, sorry sesgt, abiq...Banyak bende ko nak, ko x dpt sbb abah byak tanggungjawab...I promise you, lpas kak din pass resit ni, I'll CHANGE and WORK HARD as both students and herbalife independent distributor...So that I can give you anything you need...stay STRONG...I LOVE YOU..."

To Allah,

"O' Allah, guide my brother to You...Love him, Allah...Help him..Protect him in Imaan and Islam...Guide him all the way, Allah..Allows him to be Your army..Semoga kami dapat sama2 menjadi penegak agama Islam...Aminnn"

I'm A PROUD sister, cause I have STRONG brother...<3<3<3

My WHY

Bismillah...

Kapt. Saiful (15K Executive President Team Member, last month income RM378K) ade cakap mase Zero to Hero (14-15 April) haritu, amende mukadimah die x bape nak igt, tapi yang paling aku igt ayat kat bawah nih..

"Sebab tu, why kter kene kuat..kene strong, baru kter mampu bertahan..."

Erm..

Kurang faham sebenarnye cmne nak tau WHY aku tu strong ke tak n kenape WHY tu kene strong..then, I bought this book...

[x habes bace pown lagi, tapi BEST giler!!]

This book makes me UNDERSTAND ape maksud kapt. Saiful @ name manje die PAK YANG..=)

Dulu2, mase mule2 start istikharah kat Allah nak buat herbalife, mungkin WHY aku hanyalah keluarga + DUET...tapi, bile dah masuk NUMed dan kenal angel2 sekeliling aku, WHY aku bertambah dan KUAT..Alhamdulillah...selain keluarga, merekalah yang buat aku kuat dan trus bertahan walaupown LETIH SANGAT cm aku cter kat entry  

Bile terigt kat muke2 nih...

..yang sentiase percaya kat aku, yang YAKIN aku boleh berjaya both HERBALIFE + MEDICINE, buat aku rase...

"I can NEVER give up cause these BEAUTIFUL people believe in me and trust me without FAIL...so, I have TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF that I CAN and I WILL SUCCEED"

So, this entry was done just to show my gratitude to these people and I want to tell them that...

"KORANG, I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOOO MUCH!!!"

hehehehe..jgak nak ckap kat my topmost WHY iaitu :-

"Allah, Alhamdulillah...thank you sooo much for your TRUST in me, for these angels around me..I love you and hoping to always in love with you FOREVER, till hereafter...Allah, give me STRENGTH to stay STRONG, InsyaAllah..Aminnnn..."