The BEST Gift..=)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..=)

Dh lame giler x meng'hupdate'<ade r kwn tu sbut cengggini> blog nih..ngeeeee~~~

Byak giler bnd nk share smpai x ter'share'...too much thoughts smpai x mampu nk put into words....instead of tulis kt blog, aku prefer to implement in my life first...dh boleh, baru aku post cni...so, all the thoughts following my muhasabah these few months, nnt aku tulis dlm post laen..

Skrg nih, aku nk cter pasal birthday aku tahun nih...gile x malu promote birthday sndri...haha...senanye nk cter sbb byak sgt tarbiyah Allah utk kali ni...


Mule2 skali, nk cter pasal hadiah Allah bg kt aku..

Keblkgan nih, aku asyik dilanda kemurungan...T_T

Terlampau byak cbran dan dugaan bg aku yg buat aku rase nk give up dlm sume bnd aku buat...<perasan je lebey, org kt palestin punye dugaan lagi dhsyat>

Jujur ckap, rase down gile...rase cm the BIGGEST LOSER...T_T bukan lose weight yer..

So, aku amek kptusan lari dri bnd tu sume..aku x on fb, twitter n blog nih sbb x nk face the truth..sbb bile bkak sume2 nih, I'll see my friends progressing with 2nd year...the fact that I failed...it will feel so real again and it hurts so much...

Tapi, after months of kemurungan, akhirnya...finally...huhu~~~

*bunga api letup2 cket*

I got a message from a very dear fren..so, aku pown cal r die..hehehe..dpat ckap ngn ex-partner gak...Alhamdulillah...ceria cket dh hdup aku pastu...this happened few days before my actual birthday...

Sepjg aku hdup, this is one of the best gift Allah bg kt aku....Allahuakbar...sbbnye, aku mmg rndu sesgt kt depa dua org nih...tp aku sedey+segan nk meng'contact' depa sbb mesti depa busy...Allah gerakkan depa2 ni ctc aku...MashaAllah....terharu sgt...T_T


The BEST part is, aku x luah pown kt Allah aku rndu depa2 nih...See???

ALLAH KNOWS BEST!!! <3<3<3

Then, beberapa hari pastu...aku dpat reconcile ngan one of my cousin yg x rapat ngan aku...dulu kcik2 mmg rapat, tdo skali sume...tp bile makin besar, makin jauh plak...so, again...Allah, forever grateful to You...T_T

And once again nk ckap, aku x penah gtau Allah aku rndu sesgt die nih...cm tau2 je...hehe...hebat tak Allah nih???? So, trust me...jgn jauh2 dari Allah...

Allah is the BEST!!!

On my birthday, Alhamdulillah....All praises be to Allah....=)

Allah woke me up with the best possible way...kucing aku dtg, nama dia 'Coriang'...kekeke...pelik giler name die...

Dok mengiau soh aku bangun...hehehe...sweet x? bg pencinta kucing, this is like heaven gile okeyh....bgun2 je aku 'high' sbb excited sgt...

*excited, excited!!!*

And lagi best...Allah kejut aku dlm pkul 4 stgah cmtu...so, aku rase cm Allah nk soh bgun dan solat and ask for anything from Him...Allahuakbar...MashaAllah....bersyukurnya aku...

Dan yg buat aku bersyukur sgt2 time tu...sudah agak lame aku x bgun solat malam...T_T

Pathetic kan? Aku rase status imaan aku sgt horrible+disaster...so, aku rase cm x layak utk dipilih oleh Allah utk bgun solat malam...

*terharu...*

Then, aku keep 'touching' sbb ayat ni yg aku jmp mase tadarus pg td...

76:29-30

"Sungguh, ayat-ayat) ini adalah peringatan, maka barang siapa menghendaki (kebaikan bagi dirinya) tentu dia mengambil jalan menuju Tuhannya. Tetapi kamu tidak mampu (menempuh jalan itu), kecuali apabila dikehendaki Allah. Sungguh, Allah Maha Mengetahui, Maha Bijaksana."

Alhamdulillah...Allah masih nak aku cari Dia...Alhamdulillah sgt2...x dpt nk explain cmne 'grateful'nye aku sbb Allah x penah tinggal aku jauh2....He will never let me go far from Him for so long..

Jujur, mesti r ade time di mana aku menjauhkan diri dari Allah...kenape ntah...bukan dapat ap pown..Though by running away from Him, I'll become more and more vulnerable...still, there are times when I still choose to run away from Him...everyone, says Naudzubillah okey...jgn ikut...*AMARAN KERAS*

Astaghfirullah...T_T

*embarrassing...indeed...*

Ape yg aku blaja, still the same...unless you let Allah go, He will NEVER let you go...

so, keep holding on...credit:Avril Lavigne

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Next, the celebration...hehe...mule2 igt kan x de celebration...pak cik aku pown blanja aku makan pizza...die nk beli kek jgak tapi aku x de mood nk makan kek...kang mebazir je..ngeee~~

Meh nk 'show off' cket gmbonyer..

*Dgn tok limah...huhu...tutp mate r plak...=_='*

*Pak busuk n Iffat!!!*

And lastly....

Untuk sahabat2 NUMed yg rapat ngan aku, for me, you are part of my family...korg tau korg sape..=)

To be able to have sahabat2 cm korg, I can't thank Allah enough....korglah antara the BEST gift Allah bg kt aku...so, smpena ckup umo 21 tahun...aku nk gtau korg..aku SAYANG sgt kt korg..n skrg nih aku RNDUUUU giler kt korg...T_T

Sabaq, sabaq...hadhinah oiii...tahun depan pjg umoq aku jmp korg...=)

To commmorate this, aku nk share gmbar2 korg kt cni...kalu rase gmbar nih x hensem, x lawa...pe lagi, bg gmbar2 lawa kt aku ek...=)

*Aku pown x pasti awat gmbaq ni nmpak huduh sgt...=_='*

*Si kurus nih...jeles!*

*Baby WANI!!! Aunty Fyra!!!...=)*

*GEDs Zatil + GEDs Wafa...hahaha....=p*

By the way, turutan gmbar ni x indicate pape pown ek..x bererti sape paling atas, yg tu aku pling sayang....kang ade yg 'touching' plak...aku sekeh kang..haha...aku sayg korg EQUALLY...hehe..

Sahabat2 yg x de dlm ni, anda sume masih aku sayang...sayang sgt...cumenye this post specially made to express how much I miss these people sbb senanye I can meet them if I want to...but, I just don't want to meet them yet...cause it's still tough...so, aku still kene meluahkan perasaan..jd, blog ni lar last optionnye...=)

So, inilah antara BEST gifts yg Allah dah bagi kt aku...

MashaAllah...Subhanallah...Alhamdulillah...Thank you Allah for everything...

Btw, senanye aku nk post bnd nih time birthday aku...tp td dh bergayut ngn cousin kesayangan...terlajak r plak...hehe..

Semoga tarbiyah Allah utk aku kali ni can touch many other hearts to also want to get close to Him...InshaAllah...Jazakallahukhairankathiran...Till next time, inshaAllah...