Perancangan Hadhinah VS Perancangan ALLAH

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...=)

Alhamdulillah, kali nih insyaAllah dapat lagi idea nk share something ngn readers blog ak [kalu ade..=_=”]

Kami kt NUMed nih baru je anta lasssttt assignment for FIRST YEAR as medical student yg sgt membunuh..which is FAMILY STUDY..

Ak nih mmg berazam nk sgt2 dapt MERIT..which is kasta pling tggi.. so, ak letak expectation yg sgt tggi kt dri sendiri...wt bersungguh2, do my VERY BEST, tolg org RAMAI so that bley msuk akaun akhirat skali + Allah nmpak usaha ak yg bantu dri sendri n org lain..

Tapi cm sahabat tersayang share ayat [dh dapat lame ayat nih, but when it comes from him it feels nicer =) jazakillah, sahabat]

3 : 54

“Mereka merancang, Allah jua merancang, maka Allah adalah sebaik2 perancang”

Aku merancang utk menghantar pada hari terakhir penghantaran sbb ak fobia ngn peristiwa yg berlaku mase assignment 3..tetapi cm ayat di ats, AKU PLAN tapi ALLAH pown PLAN jgak..msti r ALLAH menang dan perancanganNYA lagi gempak..

Nak dijdkn citer, mase ngah nk print, laptop tuh ‘hang’...after ‘hang’ beberapa ketika, ak off...bler bkak balek, sebahagian drpd assignment ak hilg ntah kemana tanpa dapat dikesan...T_T

[worst reality EVER]

Hanya ALLAH yg mengetahui hati ak wktu tuh..air mata pown x mampu nk meleleh..hehehe...my lecturer panic-stricken tgok ak yg cm hlang arah...nseb baek igt ALLAH cket2 cmtuh..kalu x, mau terjun bangunan ak rase...

Sedey die Allah je r yg tau...effort bersungguh2 berhari2 ak hilang ditelan laptop...[sgt disappointing sbb ak bukn jenis bersungguh buat keje..bler bersungguh, jd cmni plak..tamparan yg sgt dahsyat]

Tapi, di sebalik kehilangan nih..Allah anugerahi hadiah yg lagiiii best which is pengakuan sayang daripada sahabat2 tersayang yang InsyaAllah sampi SYURGA...

X de r diorg verbally cakap sayang kat aku...but they showed it...Dua2 hamba Allah tersayang nih, setia bersama aku di saat2 aku fragile cmtu..apart from Allah, they r source of my energy in that moment..Thanks Allah for them...Mase tuh, rase disayangi sgt2 walupown sbnrnye ak sndri pown rse x willing nk sayang dri sendiri yg embarrassing..helping lots and lots of people with their assignments, but couldn’t even help myself..T_T

One of them is my BELOVED PARTNER for this project..he said,

“Baru nak wt heroic action, start same2, habes same2..”

[Sorry for disappointing u, partner]

This is my reply for ur sms last time....

“Kau pown tau, every S****G yg kuar from mulut aku, InsyaAllah ak mksudkn kerana ALLAH dan mmg ak raseknnye..ak pown nk bg infinity SORRY to you because being a pain for such a loooonnnggg significant period of ur precious life...Ampuni aku...=) semoga kter jumpa di SYURGA, InsyaAllah..nmpak kau mengah2 msuk SRC wt ak rse nk meleleh sbb terharu sgt..relief gler mase tuh..EGO ak halang ak cakap bnd nih, tapi ak dh ckap kn??? So, ego ak kalah lagi.. Alhamdulillah, progress nih sgt indah..egoistik, a trait yg ak try ubah n in the process of ubah n it’s working n harap ko support ak utk tros berubah...InsyaAllah..=) Anauhibbukalillah [btol ke???]...jazakallah, partner..jom same2 kejar ALLAH..Aminnn”

“As for the other sahabat, wlupown ko dtg after ak pggl sbb nk mntak tolong, still ko datang..thank you sgtttt2222...ak sgt hargai..ALL the PAIN yg kter go through mase wt assignment nih, ak x rase ak bley tanggung without ALLAH and of course YOU!!! Things we shared together, x pernah ak dpt ngn sahabat2 laen...supporting each other, accepting each other best and worst sides, being especially LOVE by lecturers yg ak x terpk akan pandang aku yg x significant+istimewa nih..All of these are thanks to ALLAH and YOU!!! thank you sesgt...Jazakallah...=) Semoga sampai SYURGA, InsyaALLAH”

FOR ALLAH, ALL PRAISES IN THE WHOLE WORLD BELONGS TO YOU...THANKS FOR SENDING ME THESE 2 ANGELS TO BE MY STRENGTH..STILL, YOU ARE THE REASON BEHIND IT, SO AGAIN...THANK YOU ALLAH...I LOVE YOU ALLAH, INSYAALLAH AND HOPE TO STILL LOVE YOU TILL FOREVER..AMINNN...