Bila kita sudah suka...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Perasaan suke2 kat org ni mmg perkare biase..budaya couple plak, erm...luar biase yg sudah menjadi perkara biase...eh#

Sebelum aku mengenal DnT, aku juge pernah BIASA dgn budaye ni..T_T

Seronok???

Ofkos!!! Byak hadiah kowt dpat...bunga, coklat, baju, gelang tangan, gelang kaki, gelang leher, eh#

The regret???

[Tros huduh muke okeyhhh..menyesal tak sudah!]

Mase mula2 tau couple tu haram, OMG!!! Terkejowt beruk uols..

Maka, bermulalah proses mujahadah membuang karat2 bf dlm hdup...susah...susah sangat...Tapi ketahuilah, Allah takkan ambil sesuatu drpd kita tanpa menggantikan dgn sesuatu yg lebih baik..He's Ar-Rahman and Ar-Rahim...REMEMBER! He'll never do something as cruel as that..

Sbgai galang-gantinya, Dia, cinta teragung telah menggantikan dgn sahabat yg sentiasa sedia menemani di kala hati merindui bf yg sah2 haram utk dirindui tu...Adatlah, putus cinta...mestilah frustrated...byak kali relapse..kjap kuat, kjap lembik...ngeeee~~~

Pastu plak, bile dh get over bf, mulalah plak rase down....

Rase down sbb ade mase lalu yg mcm tu...T_T

Rase stress sgt2...

Can't help but wondering, WHY, oh, WHY Allah allowed such shameful things to be done by me, myself???

Pastu, recently bace buku Cinta High Class by Ustazah Fatimah Syarha...lagi rase down..kerana masa lalu yg htam dan penuh noda...ceyhhhhh, ayat nk high class gittew..hehe

Kerana tak jumpa bahan bacaan yg mampu menjelaskan hikmah masa lalu itu, akhirnya mntak pndpat dari shbt2 yg juga ana anggap sbagai murabbi dan murabbiah..uisy, ana uols...

Dan, akhirnya...Alhamdulillah....seorang sahabat yang sangat ana syg kerana Allah, ukhti _ _ _ _ _ _lah [biarlah rahsia,ngeee~~~] org yg menenangkan ketika ini...ketika mujahadah pertama dahulu juga ukhti inilah yang setia di sisi...

Beliau bilang sama ana, 

"Yasmin Mogahed pernah cakap:

"a person dive deep in the darkness of the ocean, just to bring a valuable pearls"

seorang muslim, yang pernah melalui semua lumpur2 kehidupan ni, adalah seorang muslim yang sedang disiapkan Allah untuk mengeluarkan ummat dari lumpur tersebut.

subhanallah, Allah pilih kita untuk lalui semua tu sebab Allah nak bg rasa kemanisan iman tu kat kita

"dia membenci kembali kpd dosa2 seakan2 dia membenci untuk dimasukkan ke dalam neraka"

perasan tak, kita sgt manja ngn Allah..

asyik2 cerita kat Allah, takut2 dosa kita yang lepas Dia tak ampunkan,

takut semua dakwah tarbiyah kita buat tak mengesankn hati orang sebab terhijab dgn dosa kita...

subhanallah, ana lebih syg hubungan sebegitu dgn Allah. dari hubungan yang tiada rasa mengharap

"sungguh, mrk selalu bersegera dlm kebaikn dan mrk selalu berdoa kpd Kami dgn penuh harap dan cemas " 21:90"

Amek kau...copy paste tros okeyh..lpas ckap dgn beliau, Allah Azza Wajalla tlh memberikan satu ketenangan yang 'indescribable'...ngeeee~~~

Pastu, mula terfikir apekah cara terbaek utk menghalang diri dari terjatuh cinta kepada yg tak sepatutnya..mungkin lebih tepat, cara2 nak mengesan kesahihan perasaan yang kter sdang rase tu..

Biaselaaa...ter'crush' kt org tu, ter'crush' kt org ni...bnd2 mcm tu mmg slalu jadi...especially utk gegurls..yeke? Ni pendapat je dan berdasarkan kata2 sahabat aku..tak tau la btol ke tak..btw, berbalik kpd misi di atas...mcm mane nk identify??? Jadi, aku come up dgn checklist cam kt bawah ni..

 

'Infatuation' tu mungkin bley pi cari dlm kamus ape mksud die..hehe..utk simplify, 'infatuation' tu bukanlah real love...die mcm hanya tertarik??? lebey kurang mcm tu la..sbnrnye, instead of 'infatuation', nk tulis "cinta kerana syaitan"..eh# horror gile kan bunyi..jd, tak jadi guna..haha..

Ni cket je listnye..ade lagi smbungan tp ckuplah share yg ni je..yg len2 tambah sndri..hehe..btw, nk komen cket..."Ikhtilat yg tak dijaga" tu byak kupasan die..mungkin bley study lagi sape yg curious atau mungkin, bley tanye aku..huahuahua...mungkin juga bley tgok vid nih...

Lagi satu nk share, mungkin rase budaya couple tu seronok sbb byak hadiah dpat dan selalu org ckap ucpn kasih syg..hahaha...parents I pown tak bg hadiah byak mcm tu..jd, aku berazam nnt bile dh ade anak, aku nk amalkan budaya memberi hadiah dan ucapan kasih sayang...biar anak2 aku tak rase perlu kepada bnd2 tu daripada lelaki atau gadis ajnabi..inshaAllah..Parents aku mungkin tak buat sbb parents diorg tak buat..ye la, org dulu2 mane ade ckap "I Love You" kt anak2 ni..jadi, aku, bakal ibu muda abad ni akan try utk mengubah budaya ini..hahaha...inshaAllah...

Jadi, kesimpulannya...

"Indeed, we can't change the past we used to live in, but we have future ahead of us to write beautiful stories"

-quoted-

Dan bila kita sudah suka, amatlah penting utk kita analyze balek rasa suka tu dtgnye drpd mane so that rase suka tu tak melalaikan dan tak menjadi fitnah, inshaAllah...

Keep calm and trust Allah...InshaAllah...

FINAL:MOST Precious GIFTS from BeingME conference

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

It had been months since I planned to write this post..it was planned already..it's just not posted...Why??? I'm wondering myself...As outdated as it is, still, I feel responsible to post this post...I did think of ignoring it and just forget about it...tapi....[rase cam ade hak tak tertunai kalau x post]...this is the FINAL part of most precious gifts from BeingME conference...

Better late than NEVER...-Anonymous-

hehe....

Session 5: The Greatest Love of All:Do We Really Love Allah Most?
By: Sister Yasmin Mogahed

Allah is the God...the ONLY ONE...ni'mat such as money, clothes even families, are His gifts...Gifts that are meant to bring us closer to Him, not to be apart from Him..the reality, we keep getting further and further apart from Him...

"It is human to love, it is human to want gift, but it is problem when we put gift in the heart, God in the hand"

"It is easy to put aside what in the hand. But what is in the heart is thing we cannot live without"

A simple analogy, 

Allah is the food, the air...Dunya is a necklace...how we live our lives now, we're exchanging food and air with a necklace...like saying, "Suffocate me, but make sure I'll wear the necklace when I die"...

Ouch...sooo cynical, wasn't it?

"Only Allah is our survivor, not His gifts"

Me : I do put Allah as number ONE, who are you to judge???
[my heart scream]

DO I REALLY PUT ALLAH AS NUMBER ONE???

Sister Yasmin continue her speech...she questioned each and everyone of us..

"What makes you cry?"

"What makes you most angry?"

Hurmmm...me..most of the time, Allah is not the cause...T_T

Then, another analogy...The Day of Judgement, is like examination...how much we study, how much we wish it won't come..the day will come..it is exactly like the Day of Judgement...

"We don't really see the storm is coming like we don't really see the day of Judgement is coming.Nothing will stop death. Nothing will stop the Day of Judgement."

"In the moment death, tongue cannot say what is not in the heart"

Now, I know..why only NOW Allah gives me the feeling of posting this post...For me to remember back what I heard June last year..to listen back to it, only after I experienced the feeling of being on the verge of death...because of what Sister Yasmin said...let's hear it again...

"In the moment of death, tongue cannot say what is not in the heart"

Now, my heart is beating like crazy...I can feel my toes, my nails are getting colder...it's tooooo scary...

I did wish to die, long long time ago..long before I knew about Shadatul Haq, about the meaning of being a Khalifah, about the meaning of Shadahah..Lailahaillallah...And now, I'm grateful I'm still alive as there are too many responsibilities I have yet to complete...

Closing speech
By: Sheikh Tawfique Chowdhury

30 Qualities of Muslimah, Mukminah-in-the-making...

To be honest...I don't really get everything...

1) Piety 

“The world is a collection of treasures. The best treasure in this world is a righteous wife"

[Sunan Ibn Mājah] 

credit to : http://darulfiqh.com/what-shall-i-look-for-in-a-prospective-spouse/

2) Donating everything in the course of Allah

3) Patience

4) Tawakal

5) Held on strong to Islam despite pressures

I don't really remember when Sheikh Tawfique said this, but I want to relate it to this point...

"Every good, Allah makes it hard to get. Thus, why must quality righteous muslimah be easy to get?"

In the world where coupling is the norm, it is normal to have a feeling of wanting to be part of it...It is human to feel the need to love and to be loved...and, Allah already prepare us steps to be part of it, which is 'akad...and certainly coupling is not included in the steps...

I can't say more about this as my knowledge also limited only to things I learnt from school, speeches and books I read...but, if people are to question what's wrong with coupling if we don't do things Allah forbids like touching etc...I must tell you, though your physicals don't do sins, how about your heart???

Submitting ourselves to Allah not only limited to we have to do everything he asked by our actions only...it also requires us to submit to Him in the heart, in the words and in the action...that's what Shahadatul Haq means..How can we love Allah when we use that love for others...for example, our boyfriend...

[33:4]

"Allah has not put for any man two hearts inside his body.."

I don't know about others, but people keep asking why I don't have boyfriend...why I don't want to be in love anymore??? Some people also said, "if you don't have anyone, it's going to be hard for you to get married".. "If you reject too many people, they will think you're so hard to get..lastly, no one will want to marry you"...

T_T

I must admit, I did get stress over these....hehe...I am ONLY human..but after listening to what Sheikh Tawfique said, I feel at ease..I must hold on to Islam till the end...biiznillah...

6) Careful

7) Marry a husband due to piety and religion

8) Marriage and respect towards your husband

9) Love for the husband

And another 21, I'm too focus listening that I don't bother to write it down..Now, I forgot everything...I really regretted it but at least, I get to learn new thing..it's better to record the speech instead of jotting it down on paper...=)

Lastly, that's the end of one of the MOST FULFILLING day of my life...Alhamdulillah..hopefully, this sharing will help me now and in the future and inshaAllah, in akhirah like it helped me in the past..biiznillah...

To Be STRONG

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

My very own definition of a strong person is "never complain and be patient, always grateful, trust only Allah, cry only to Him and seek help from Him and ONLY Him.."

It has always been my dream to be this kind of person...

However, I notice my greatest weakness which is not that bad actually...instead, it's just contradictory with me desiring to be strong...I realize I get myself attach far too easily towards human-being <huiyoo..I talk as if I'm not human...=_='> this also means that I'll eventually become dependent upon them without me realizing it myself...fuhhh...<sweating...0_0'> Soooo irony....LOL!

Penat dh merepek bhse omputih nih..nk ckap melayu sudehhh..hehe..cm skrg nih, this post was drafted mase aku kt bhgian kecemasan, waiting utk pi jmp doktor...smpat plak mem'blog' merapik..to be honest, I need to  talk to someone now..jadi, saye memilih utk berckap ngn hp smbil tggu turn..T_T sedey + lonely...pathetic giler! 

Actually, aku sgt2 memerlukan my 2 dearest angels...

[dan2 happy terigt depa...]

Sgt2 miserable + fragile + sedeyh + lembik dan sume2 yg negatif la skrg nih....sgt2 nak tepon diorg dan nges2 cm aku buat time kesah fail aritu...hehehehe...kcik je tulis f*** word tu..segan..LOL!

Tapi, aku tersgtlah segan nak wat cmtu....diorg cbok sbgai med students...mane ade mase nk dgr ralat aku...jujur ckap, aku rase sgt2 insignificant dan inferior utk call diorg...even utk pk I'm still part of their lives...that's how badly injured my self-esteem and all...and this is the first reason why I won't do that..

Kesannye, hanya Allah yang tahu cmne broken + wreckednye hati aku nih sbb I have to refrain myself from calling these people...indeed, I have Allah to talk with, to cry with, but human nature...sometimes, I still need human to share my sorrow and pains...cause for now, I've been enduring it alone for quite some time, so it's kind of suffocating already...

Jadi, in other word, I've reached my limit...

Tetapi, I still managed to not to call them until now...why? Because there's one more reason yg menjadi cm string yg sgt halus dan kuat yg menahan hati aku daripada menanges2 dan call depa2 nih cm aku slalu buat dgn x malunye...

Allah sends me all these hardships as well as the pains alongside with them so that aku jd kuat..makin kuat....invincible towards kesedihan duniawi...memetik kata2 Saladin, 

"Kupinta dari Allah kekuatan, Allah kirimkan kesulitan..." 

[lebih kurg cmnila kata2 Saladin tu...]

Jadi, kalu aku akhirnya call diorg dan menangis2 sume, aku cm defeat the purpose of Allah sends me all these trials...besides, sia2 gak usaha aku endure bnd2 nih all this while..

Nnt, smpai akhirnya...aku akan tetap lembik physically dan mentally...jadi, aku akn ttp bertahan...saket cmne pown, I'll be patient...aku akn cube bersabar dan hanya mengadu nges2 kt Allah...I promise myself to try this...aku tau, I can never be perfectly strong...I will reach my limit again...mgkin, after this post aku x tahan dh....aku x tau...tapi...for now, I will hold on...

Lagipown, skrg ni aku ade buku nih...lupe nk letak tadi...siyesly, aku rase nk promote kt sume org sbb msti r sume org akan melalui saat2 duka kan??? Buku ni sgtlah bagus utk refill imaan yg tercabar saat2 duka dan sengsara..this is actually a present from a dear friend...thank you soo much..Allah je bley balas...=) x de r korg tros okay pas bace, but it really helps...a lot...dgn izin Allah,biiznillah...

O'Allah, gives me strength to hold on....inshaAllah...Aminnn

I'm just a COWARD

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Cam aku citer kt post nih, dalam proses membaik-pulih imaan dan semangat aku...aku memilih utk lari dari kenyataan..

Cam aku ckap, aku x bkak fb, x bkak twitter n sbgainya...and why is that??? 



Because I am a COWARD...


Yes...


I admit...


Aku mengaku, aku hanyalah seorg pengecut yg bile berdepan dgn unbearable reality, I'll choose to run away..


Sbb aku rase, dgn lari from this truth...it will hurt less...but the truth is, it is not...


And why I'm not afraid to run, because I trust those people whom I run away from, will be willing to accept me with open arms whenever I feel like returning...


That's how much I trust them...


Mesti lar, aku takut kalau diorg lupe kat aku...Siyes..aku TAKOWT....Tapi, utk simply call diorg/text diorg, memerlukan seluruh kekuatan dan keberanian yg ade dlm diri aku nih...kalu korg rase cm exaggerate, up to you guys...tp this is the truth about the 'me' yg pengecut nih...


Sbb aku sgt takowt di'turn down' <x reti cmne nk translate ke Malay>


I might seem strong...but I'm not...REALLY...


I'm scared being alone....I'm scared of loneliness....


Sbb tu aku x nak contact diorg2 nih...cause their lives and my life aren't the same anymore...So, during hibernation nih, aku try to recover...there are times when I feel like I'm okay now...but the truth is, I'm not entirely okay....


You want prove??? Tgok je r time aku balek from NUMed dulu...


I cried the whole journey back from JB...hehe....nseb baek drive sengsorg....kalu x, mau giler aku menahan perasaan...aku pi JB sbb aku igt aku dh okay sepenuhnya...hahaha...mane dtg confident ntah...Oh, baru aku teringat...Aku pi JB utk absorb as much strength as I can from those dear to me...sbb aku tau, the route ahead will be much tougher and sadder...


Why it's so hard for me to face this failure??? People fail and succeed..perkara biase...tapi aosal susah sgt utk aku??? Lembik giler....


Sbb, aku x penah rase aku ade kelebihan lain selain good in studying...aku ni, I'm used to listen to people saying I have ill-behavior...I'm used to people saying I'm good at nothing and that I was lucky Allah gives me a brilliant brain...how pathetic was that?


Sebnarnye, as a muslim...as a true muslim...aku x patowt ter'affected' by bnd2 negatif yg depa2 ni ckap...Allah says in the quran, from a lecture by Ustaz Nouman Ali Khan bertajuk Levels of Faith...aku x nak quote sebijik2, tapi Ustaz ckap...Allah declare manusia sbgai the BEST creation of His...jd, kalu aku dgar hanya Allah, mesti aku x kan ter'affected' by what people says to me...T_T


Tapi, aku kan manusia yg sentiasa ada salah silap....jd, inevitably aku masih ter'affected' sbb sblum ni aku hanya islam pada MyKad...jd, dulu sebelum aku kenal usrah dan islam, aku punye confident level sgtlah tiada...langsung!!!


Aku rase aku not worth-living pown...dahsyat giler kan???


Tapi....


Benarlah seperti kata2 Saidina Umar, 

“Kita ini adalah orang-orang yang paling hina lalu Allah memuliakan kita dengan Islam. Kalau 

saja kita mencari kemuliaan pada selain Islam maka Allah akan menghinakan kita lagi…”

[credit : http://azzariyat.com/2011/01/17/kita-mulia-kerana-islam/]

So, aku mula berubah, confident aku mula naik sedkit demi sdkit kerana aku bangga aku Islam...aku gembira kerana Allah kenalkan aku semula kpd Islam...


But my past is always a part of me...to really be a muslim, there are times aku berjaya, tapi ade jugak time aku gagal...seperti sifat imaan...turun dan naik...


When I failed the first time, I already feel down...but I keep believing...I keep striving...I sacrificed lots of thing....tdor, herbalife, rehat, food dan mcm2 lagi...because I know, Allah will let me pass...


Tapi, the reality is...passing the exam is not the thing I need...How do I say this? Sbnrnye, despite my hard work...aku dpat rase, passing the exam this time is not the best thing for me...aku dapat rase imaan aku terancam kalu aku pass the 2nd exam....kenape??? x perlu aku ceritakan kt cni...ckup la org2 yg dekat tahu...


Tapi, walaupown aku tau bnd ni, masih sangat2 susah utk aku face this truth...All because of my past....the fact yg aku believe I am a good-for-nothing but brain....T_T


Jadi, utk org2 dalam hdup aku especially dearest one...for now, I just need you guys to understand...wlaupown sudah berbulan2...aku masih can't get over it...my tears still falling...aku masih desperate berdoa utk okay...aku nak sgt okay...


Aku nak sgt balik JB dan be able to smile and laugh ngn korg2 tanpa menangis bile aku dok blik sengsorg...hehe...


Jadi, aku harap sgt korg sabar dan percaye kt aku...inshaAllah, aku akan okay...cumenye, fahamilah....aku masih perlukan mase sbb aku hanyalah PENGECUT....mendiamkan diri bukan bererti aku x igt korg...my prayers always there for you guys...


Kenapa aku tulis kt blog nih? Sbb ade yg terasa dgn aku...Astaghfirullah...aku mntak maaf sgt2...aku admit, cm selfish ape yg aku wat nih...aku x terfikir yg mereka2 nih igt kat aku cm aku igt kt diorg...aku igt, tiada sape yg sayang...Allahuakbar..memalukan okeyh fikir cmni...nk wat cmne...this failure blow away aku punye confident...


Hopefully, sahabat2 yg bace akan faham...aku kene luah bnd nih and this blog is the most ideal place to do so and of course, Allah...


Alhamdulillah, aku rase lega pas ckap bnd nih...though it seems unlikely, really hope org yg terasa tu akan bace....inshaAllah...

The BEST Gift..=)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..=)

Dh lame giler x meng'hupdate'<ade r kwn tu sbut cengggini> blog nih..ngeeeee~~~

Byak giler bnd nk share smpai x ter'share'...too much thoughts smpai x mampu nk put into words....instead of tulis kt blog, aku prefer to implement in my life first...dh boleh, baru aku post cni...so, all the thoughts following my muhasabah these few months, nnt aku tulis dlm post laen..

Skrg nih, aku nk cter pasal birthday aku tahun nih...gile x malu promote birthday sndri...haha...senanye nk cter sbb byak sgt tarbiyah Allah utk kali ni...


Mule2 skali, nk cter pasal hadiah Allah bg kt aku..

Keblkgan nih, aku asyik dilanda kemurungan...T_T

Terlampau byak cbran dan dugaan bg aku yg buat aku rase nk give up dlm sume bnd aku buat...<perasan je lebey, org kt palestin punye dugaan lagi dhsyat>

Jujur ckap, rase down gile...rase cm the BIGGEST LOSER...T_T bukan lose weight yer..

So, aku amek kptusan lari dri bnd tu sume..aku x on fb, twitter n blog nih sbb x nk face the truth..sbb bile bkak sume2 nih, I'll see my friends progressing with 2nd year...the fact that I failed...it will feel so real again and it hurts so much...

Tapi, after months of kemurungan, akhirnya...finally...huhu~~~

*bunga api letup2 cket*

I got a message from a very dear fren..so, aku pown cal r die..hehehe..dpat ckap ngn ex-partner gak...Alhamdulillah...ceria cket dh hdup aku pastu...this happened few days before my actual birthday...

Sepjg aku hdup, this is one of the best gift Allah bg kt aku....Allahuakbar...sbbnye, aku mmg rndu sesgt kt depa dua org nih...tp aku sedey+segan nk meng'contact' depa sbb mesti depa busy...Allah gerakkan depa2 ni ctc aku...MashaAllah....terharu sgt...T_T


The BEST part is, aku x luah pown kt Allah aku rndu depa2 nih...See???

ALLAH KNOWS BEST!!! <3<3<3

Then, beberapa hari pastu...aku dpat reconcile ngan one of my cousin yg x rapat ngan aku...dulu kcik2 mmg rapat, tdo skali sume...tp bile makin besar, makin jauh plak...so, again...Allah, forever grateful to You...T_T

And once again nk ckap, aku x penah gtau Allah aku rndu sesgt die nih...cm tau2 je...hehe...hebat tak Allah nih???? So, trust me...jgn jauh2 dari Allah...

Allah is the BEST!!!

On my birthday, Alhamdulillah....All praises be to Allah....=)

Allah woke me up with the best possible way...kucing aku dtg, nama dia 'Coriang'...kekeke...pelik giler name die...

Dok mengiau soh aku bangun...hehehe...sweet x? bg pencinta kucing, this is like heaven gile okeyh....bgun2 je aku 'high' sbb excited sgt...

*excited, excited!!!*

And lagi best...Allah kejut aku dlm pkul 4 stgah cmtu...so, aku rase cm Allah nk soh bgun dan solat and ask for anything from Him...Allahuakbar...MashaAllah....bersyukurnya aku...

Dan yg buat aku bersyukur sgt2 time tu...sudah agak lame aku x bgun solat malam...T_T

Pathetic kan? Aku rase status imaan aku sgt horrible+disaster...so, aku rase cm x layak utk dipilih oleh Allah utk bgun solat malam...

*terharu...*

Then, aku keep 'touching' sbb ayat ni yg aku jmp mase tadarus pg td...

76:29-30

"Sungguh, ayat-ayat) ini adalah peringatan, maka barang siapa menghendaki (kebaikan bagi dirinya) tentu dia mengambil jalan menuju Tuhannya. Tetapi kamu tidak mampu (menempuh jalan itu), kecuali apabila dikehendaki Allah. Sungguh, Allah Maha Mengetahui, Maha Bijaksana."

Alhamdulillah...Allah masih nak aku cari Dia...Alhamdulillah sgt2...x dpt nk explain cmne 'grateful'nye aku sbb Allah x penah tinggal aku jauh2....He will never let me go far from Him for so long..

Jujur, mesti r ade time di mana aku menjauhkan diri dari Allah...kenape ntah...bukan dapat ap pown..Though by running away from Him, I'll become more and more vulnerable...still, there are times when I still choose to run away from Him...everyone, says Naudzubillah okey...jgn ikut...*AMARAN KERAS*

Astaghfirullah...T_T

*embarrassing...indeed...*

Ape yg aku blaja, still the same...unless you let Allah go, He will NEVER let you go...

so, keep holding on...credit:Avril Lavigne

to

Next, the celebration...hehe...mule2 igt kan x de celebration...pak cik aku pown blanja aku makan pizza...die nk beli kek jgak tapi aku x de mood nk makan kek...kang mebazir je..ngeee~~

Meh nk 'show off' cket gmbonyer..

*Dgn tok limah...huhu...tutp mate r plak...=_='*

*Pak busuk n Iffat!!!*

And lastly....

Untuk sahabat2 NUMed yg rapat ngan aku, for me, you are part of my family...korg tau korg sape..=)

To be able to have sahabat2 cm korg, I can't thank Allah enough....korglah antara the BEST gift Allah bg kt aku...so, smpena ckup umo 21 tahun...aku nk gtau korg..aku SAYANG sgt kt korg..n skrg nih aku RNDUUUU giler kt korg...T_T

Sabaq, sabaq...hadhinah oiii...tahun depan pjg umoq aku jmp korg...=)

To commmorate this, aku nk share gmbar2 korg kt cni...kalu rase gmbar nih x hensem, x lawa...pe lagi, bg gmbar2 lawa kt aku ek...=)

*Aku pown x pasti awat gmbaq ni nmpak huduh sgt...=_='*

*Si kurus nih...jeles!*

*Baby WANI!!! Aunty Fyra!!!...=)*

*GEDs Zatil + GEDs Wafa...hahaha....=p*

By the way, turutan gmbar ni x indicate pape pown ek..x bererti sape paling atas, yg tu aku pling sayang....kang ade yg 'touching' plak...aku sekeh kang..haha...aku sayg korg EQUALLY...hehe..

Sahabat2 yg x de dlm ni, anda sume masih aku sayang...sayang sgt...cumenye this post specially made to express how much I miss these people sbb senanye I can meet them if I want to...but, I just don't want to meet them yet...cause it's still tough...so, aku still kene meluahkan perasaan..jd, blog ni lar last optionnye...=)

So, inilah antara BEST gifts yg Allah dah bagi kt aku...

MashaAllah...Subhanallah...Alhamdulillah...Thank you Allah for everything...

Btw, senanye aku nk post bnd nih time birthday aku...tp td dh bergayut ngn cousin kesayangan...terlajak r plak...hehe..

Semoga tarbiyah Allah utk aku kali ni can touch many other hearts to also want to get close to Him...InshaAllah...Jazakallahukhairankathiran...Till next time, inshaAllah...